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The Holocaust survivor that I chose
to listen to was Thomas Strasser, a Hungarian Jew who was rounded up by the Nazis and spent
time in a work camp in Hungary . We arrived in the middle of his talk, and so
there are many details of his life and experiences during the war that we
missed. As he neared the end of his
talk, I asked him about his thoughts and expectations for his family and home
after he was liberated from the camp in 1945, by the Russians. He was still a teen-ager, and I asked him if,
at that point, he still had any hope that his family might be waiting for him,
or was he aware that so many Jews had been killed, and that his family might
well be included in that number?
He told us that, of course, he had
hoped that some of his family might still be alive and back at home. It was a devastating thing for him, as a
young man, to come to the discovery that his entire family had been killed in
the Nazi death camps. From the time that
he had left home in an unsuccessful effort to escape a work camp round-up, to
the end of the war, he had received only one piece of correspondence from his
family. It was a post card from his
mother. She had sent it to him from the
Jewish ghetto in Hungary ,
and had filled it with maternal admonitions to dress warmly as the colder
weather approached and to stay well. He
also told us that there were places on the post card where the writing was
blurred, and he knew that it was from the tears of his mother. He was very moved, as he spoke of this final,
emotional connection to his mother.
As a mother myself, I felt deeply
for the heartbreak of this mother, longing for her son, haunted by rumors of
terrible things happening to her son imprisoned in the camps, and living with
the increasing fear of her own imprisonment as the round up was beginning in
her own ghetto.
I pictured her, sitting at a table,
anxiously fingering a pen as she stared out of a dirty window onto a grey
world. The post card, a remnant somehow
saved, tucked absently into a suitcase during a long-forgotten vacation, lay at
an angle on the rough wood of the table.
She ran her finger absently along the edge of the card, and for a moment
allowed her thoughts to drift to the son she loved, the son she had not seen for
so long, the son who might not live. If
he lived, she knew then that his life was at best, a difficult one. At worst, it was a nightmare the very thought
of which haunted her.
Her mind drifted back to the days
when caring for him was a simple thing.
There had been a time when cuts and scrapes were easily tended with warm
water and soft kisses, when danger meant clumsy tumbles from swing sets or
colds that refused to go away. How easy
it was then, to protect him with called out warnings of caution, with warm
clothes, hot water bottles and camphor, with maternal frowns and gentle hands
and words of wisdom.
Then, he was beyond her reach, and
nothing in her arsenal of maternal tools would help him. No folk remedies, no
words of warning, no wisdom of the ages…but still, a mother must do
something. With a pen, with a post card
saved from a trip to the sea-side, with a heart filled with pain and love and
an excruciatingly desire to nurture her child, she would do something.
There is courage, there is bravery
in the hearts of those who stand up to injustice, who wage war with evil, warriors
who bear arms to protect the countries that they love.
And then there is the courage of a
mother, hands trembling with fatigue and fear, eyes filled with the sting of
tears, taking pen in hand and pouring her love to a son already lost…
“My dear Thomas, I hope and pray
that you receive this, son, and know that you are in our thoughts. Father says hello and sends his love. I trust that as the weather grows colder, you
are remembering to dress well, wear your boots and jacket, and take your
mittens with you, even if you think that you won’t need them. You never know,
and it is better to have them than not. Am I right? Of course I’m right. And eat well, child.
There is always time to eat well.
Remember what you have been taught, and take care of yourself well. It would not do, to take ill and die from the
flu, now would it?
Remember, child, you are loved and
thought of often. We are well.
I send kisses,
Your loving Mother”
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